Hello J48, thank for your understanding. I have found some of my wife’s journals. I can’t read them. She was really a sick woman. It’s terrible to see her die the way she did. I had moved out of the house for a bit to escape and to protect myself. When I would leave the house she found ways to hurt herself. Towards the end I had 911 over almost twice a week. She was passed out. One time she found away to give herself a black eye. The police investigated for possible abuse on my part. They suggested I leave for a bit. I did but I wished i didn’t. She called me at the hotel and asked that I come home. That was the day she died. Her last words were “I don’t want to drink anymore”. She died a horrid way she had puked every where and it was red with blood. I am so sorry to be so graphic. She died running away from herself in a lonely state. People don’t understand. It’s like you got to move on. We have been though so much pain. We will never find a way to forget. We will carry our scars to our graves.
Thank you may God hear us