I hope you are well and coping with your situation.
Alcoholism is a horrible disease and worse for the partners/families who feel so helpless watching the demise of the person they love (or once loved). For more years than I care to remember i have endured the constant bouts of watching my husband sink to the lowest of lows due to alcohol, then stop drinking and promise he’d change his way only to go back to his ways 2 or 3 weeks later. This time he was consuming between 1 and 2 bottles of spirits a dayand and took to sleeping in his chair as he couldn’t climb the stairs. It got to the point where he was harassing neighbours and friends to bring him alcohol (I had refused to supply it). A combination of intoxication and physical weakness meant he could no longer go to the toilet without my help (let alone walk to the nearest store to buy it himself). He fell more than once and because he’s very overweight I found it almost impossible to get him back in his chair when this happened so many times he actually urinated where he was. It was a daily occurrence, me trying to clean him up and to my shame l admit I prayed he would fall asleep and never wake up. Anyway with his access to alcohol effectively cut off her began to have horrible withdrawals. I rang a crisis line who told me my husband needed professional help, he refused. Eventually, with the help from his uncle we watched him constantly until the worst had passed. Although only I his early 60s he looked like man 20 years older. He was mortally ashamed of what he’d become and blood tests indicated that he was risking liver and kidney failure if he continued drinking. For 3 months he never touched a drop, grew stronger and loved the way he felt. Life was better for him and easier for me so when he started thinking perhaps 1 or 2 drinks with a meal or whatever should be ok my heart sank. Anyway to cut a lo g story short