Hello and I am so sad to see that you are still going through so much it breaks my heart
I feel every word you are saying
I know it’s not easy but I think sometimes we just have to let it go to set ourselves free
Even though I did find out quite a lot I know there is so much more that I don’t know and I now realise I don’t want to know because it damages you it changes who you are
It takes a long time to heal
By staying angry you are still trapped in his manipulation it’s still all about him
You will get past this
He will not change but will let you take his weight a along as you let him and do not expect any thanks for your efforts – it will just get thrown back in your face and turned against you
Having given so much to someone who says they love you but abuses your trust again and again – it destroys you
You said a kick in the teeth – I think it’s more like a sledgehammer to your soul
You will regain your strength and yourself
Just take your time
Remember an addict usually attaches themselves to a good person who is a strong anchor
Let him go and let yourself live again