Aw ladies it’s just horrendous what you’re going through.
You’re trying to fix them while loosing yourself.
The love you have for them is simply not enough.
I only suffered just over one short year which felt like hell every single day. I can’t believe you’ve all been suffering for so long.
I have not spoken to my ex since I left him and i wish him all the best and hope one day he can be clean. But i will never forgive him for dragging me into his chaotic life.
I feel peace and have found myself again.
You lose your self identity when you live every day praying they don’t use again and suffering the anxiety of when they do use again.
I promise you the only tunnel you can go down where there is light at the end is the one you go through alone.
This is no way to live and I wish you all the best and pray you find the strength to move on with your life because I promise there is life without them.
Please keep yourself safe and look after yourself and children first and foremost.
Lots of love
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