Hi SallyAmber7,
Welcome to the Forum. You are living a nightmare and I hope by writing it all down it has made you feel a bit better.
There are lots of people on here in similar situations. Read the Theresa thread, lots of Mums with Sons who are addicts. Personally I have found this site to be a god send, you can rant as much as you like and no one will judge you, every one is really helpful and will understand what you and your Family are going through.
Your Son will only get help when he wants too, and when people enable the addict they have no reason to want to give up, I have learnt that over many years with my Son. We think we are helping them by giving into their needs, usually money, but we aren’t really, we are just helping them to get more drugs and drink.
My Son is an addict alcohol/cocaine, I think they go hand in hand. He has just had a bad weekend, and I’m afraid I lost it with him, but really I’m wasting my breath. We are having a good week so far, but as people know that can change in an instant.
The Icarus Trust post on here too, and they will leave their contact details.
Please look after you and your family first that’s the most important thing.
Keep in touch on here and take care.
Dx