Hi Blaggin, welcome to the forum, yes, most people here have a loved one who has addictions and also some people in recovery offering support and advice too.
You have taken the first step to admit that you have an addiction and want support. This is a good start, and a difficult thing to admit.
My son has alcohol and cocaine addictions, (the alcohol triggers the need for cocaine ).
He is currently in early recovery, he’s been through some bad times, and so have we. Thankfully, he reached out to CA and AA fellowship groups. He goes to the meetings regularly- you have to- he is working the 12 steps with a sponsor and has great support from these guys.
It’s a daily battle, you need to be strong to fight the urges, but give it time, one day at a time…you’ll get there.
Scroll back a bit and read Danman83 posts. He offers good advice as a person in recovery. Relapses can happen but you just have to get back on the saddle again !
Please try these fellowships, it really can work, faith, strength and hope is their motto . You truly need this, to beat this evil that is addiction .
I wish you well my friend ❤
Lx