Hello your story offers hope. You must have amazing strength. Thank you for sharing.
My partner had a similar childhood but he was placed in care, where he was physically and sexually abused. He is now in his 40s and only known a life of crime and addiction.
When he met 4 years ago he said he wanted a new life. he has had numerous attempts at abstinence, as I am not a drug or alcohol user.
He tried 12 steps twice but got let down by those who were meant to support him. He has moved from heroin to crack cocaine. He lies constantly and I recently found out he has been drug dealing and that I can’t cope with or support in any way.
He says he is going to try again. He is currently having EMDR therapy but says it is this that has caused the relapse. He has changed showing no emotion other than anger.
We can’t afford rehab and the area we live in has little support and what is offered is of poor quality.
I am at a loss of what to do. I know he is in there somewhere but I’m losing hope after so many attempts of trying. He is always drawn to negative associates and when I try to discourage the relationships he says I’m controlling. I have become a shell of a person because of his addiction and behaviour.
How have you achieved your new life. What was a turning point. He has so much love around him from me and my family but do I need to leave so he can be rock bottom?
Thank you