Hey blagginit, i live a mirror image of your life right now, subo can relate to your story 100%,the pure fact that we are both desperate to stop and for myself, I’m struggling every day, I’ve just joined on here and I’m loving tge sincerity of all the people’s honest heartfelt stories, as lindyloo mentioned, being part of n/a is a really great place to start, you get strength and inspiration from the members of the fellowship, just being with others who get you /us, the hardest part is taking that step, because we are hiding our other life, I’m currently going to the online n/a meetings, maybe that would be a good place to start, and get a feel for it, thank you for sharing and I hope you /i can get to that ready day and change the cycle take care lindsay
