I can relate to what you’re saying so much.. My boyfriend just came out of a 3 month rehab just over 2 weeks ago.. We had the most amazing 2 weeks, I really felt like I had him back! Then over the weekend, I started getting that uneasy feeling when he went to the shop etc longer than he should have been, I suspected he drank on Saturday but convinced myself I was paranoid, then again when I came home from work on Sunday. I breathalysed him on Sunday and sure enough he’d been drinking. Drug test came back clear. To say I’m heartbroken is an understatement. I just feel so let down and betrayed, after all the hope I had that he really meant it this time and he wouldn’t start lying to me like before. Now I’m in turmoil, is this the last straw? Is this the time I actually walk? I really don’t want to, I cannot imagine my future without him.. But am I setting myself up for a life of lies and paranoia if I stay?
I know he’s really cut up about falling off the wagon and letting me down again.. He seems to be trying to do the right thing, talking to people in recovery and organising a sponsor for himself since the weekend.. So I feel like I should give him another chance.. But at the same time I’m wondering am I just being a walk over if I do? I hate this.. ????
I hope that you find your husband is doing something innocent xx