Thanks Chellou, that’s encouraging. I know therapy will help me, I’ve been considering getting into contact with my family therapist all day, I don’t know why, I just can’t bring myself to do it. Today, I just feel hopeless, I can’t even bring myself to leave the house. I’m trying to think about things objectively, trying to balance the hurt that I’m feeling and I suppose the evil of addiction. I feel like the lovely bubble that I was in for 2 weeks was just me kidding myself that everything was better now.. But I think I have to look at addiction as an illness that isn’t magically cured in rehab.. He can pin point all the things that he did wrong over the last few days that led him to drinking, he’s saying that he’s going to go to a meeting, meet a new sponsor tonight and stick to the structure they thought him in rehab. So I’ve decided now that when he comes home from work, I’m going to tell him that I’ll give him this chance, but probably insist on him going to meetings 7 days a week for the next while. I still feel like shit though, if I don’t feel any better in a few days, I’m going to seek out therapy.
