[smarker]

Me again :’(

We’ve had months of being great, literally the best we’ve been. Last weekend I went away with my Mum for one night. I had a horrible feeling about my partner being alone at home. Anyway, he got his hair cut after work and nipped to the pub, he had 2 pints and stayed in for the rest of the night, but I had a feeling a horrible feeling and my gut was telling me something when I got home. I just knew. So for a few days I tried to get it out of him which he denied. And tonight I just lost it and said I know you have. And he has admitted it. I can’t believe it, I actually feel so fucking sick. Why the F would he do this again. Why is it so hard to just say NO I WOULD LOSE EVERYTHING. Broken yet again