I’m pleased that you and the kids are ok. Having a job you love will help. I’m so pleased you started work, it sounds like you worked hard to even be free to do this job!
Well…. the comedown’s are reality. The ok, over the top person is the addict; over compensating.
You sound like you have hit a point of progress for your acceptance of his addiction. Sadness is better than pity or trying to fix him. He isn’t quite ready to even work on himself.
Stay positive. You have your kids, work will occupy you and hopefully rebuild your confidence and open new opportunities for you for future goals and friendships.
Make sure you rest and make happy memories with those little ones. Xx