Thank you for your kind words and taking time to respond.
I’m really struggling and not going to lie. I thought I could be a strong independent woman and do what needed to be done and get on with it with my head held high. I’m so wrong☹️
The forum is my only outlet as I’m having to suppress everything and no one knows about my situation I still have work, look after kids, pets, house etc. It’s causing extreme anxiety. I just feel like I can’t grieve, breathe or think as life is so busy with everything else.
I made the mistake of seeing him today. I drove him to his therapy session on my break. When I had to drop him back off it was like saying goodbye all over again. My heart’s broke and my soul aches. I sobbed and sobbed and he held me but he didn’t shed a tear. He must of got board as after about two minutes he said he needed to go in and have something to eat!
This hurt so much as I wish I could eat!! I just feel sick to the stomach.
I know he doesn’t deserve me and what he has done has been cruel but then why do I care so much, I think there is something wrong with me. If I was giving advice to a friend I would tell them to have got rid ages ago. Seems I can’t follow my own advice.
I feel empty, confused and deeply sad. I wish I could say I’ve made the right decision but I can’t see past the sadness yet.