I know exactly how you feel I’ve sabotage every part of my life taking coke got to the point where I was taking it every day sat on my own peeking through curtains hearing noises thinking my door is gona get kicked off It makes me sick how many times I’ve had to cancel having my kids because Ive been sniffing all night and I’m laid in bed and know there’s no way I could look after them and I know I shouldn’t do it but I Carnt stop myself I say I’ll just have one line and thats it but it never is I’ve lost my family and partner due to coke and lieing about taking it now my life is just so sad I’ve been in this coke cycle for 2 years now where I hate myself wana die hope to fix my life then back doing it the next day if I was you I would speak to your partner and tell him how bad it is and that you need his help don’t risk loosing them like I lost mine as the regret I have knowing I chose coke over my family just destroys you
