Hi
I can totally relate to your post but I am at the beginning of the journey and can only hope that my husband will admit that he has been taking cocaine and get help. I think at the moment he is in denial that he has a problem. However his personality has changed from the loving fun guy I met to constantly blaming me for any problems and belittling me which I believed to be true. I can now see that it isn’t me – I have blamed myself for everything as that was what he made me believe and have started taking antidepressants coupled with insomnia. I like you have always been a half glass full person but have gradually been dragged down to rock bottom. His drinking is also through the roof and I am also drinking way more than I used too. I have been in contact with CA and am attending an alanon meeting this evening on their advice. I am praying for a positive outcome to all this. What an absolutely awful drug cocaine is x