Sometimes its good to ‘just know’ yourself, because believe me, they’ll never admit it.
It is hard to comprehend like you say, but Coke is their best friend, and the little devil on their shoulder will be telling him that because you’re trying to stop him that you are the enemy. Try to be stay strong and look after yourself, because you need to. I lost so much weight in the thick of it, I looked like a skeleton, nervous energy xx