My partner has taken a long time to admit that coke has changed him. At the moment I’m trying to do the things I can to protect the children and me from any further relapses. I naively thought something like this would never happen to me. I think that’s why it’s been hard to accept but hearing I’m not the only person this has/is effecting has helped.
I don’t think I’ve ever felt rage like this ever in my life. The only thing I can compare it to is grief.
I do find it impossible to talk about with friends and family right now – I think I feel shame at what has happened.