Hi CherryB
I have just finished a 15 year relationship due to his cocaine addiction that has only gotten worse since it started five years ago.
I didn’t tell anyone for a long time, at least my family anyway as almost all of his family & friends take it too!
I’m four weeks into our separation and over the past couple of days my anxiety has eased, my appetites coming back, I’ve lost over a stone in a month.
I have four children to think about and a new career but what really bought closure for me was the fact he came to visit his children the weekend and just before leaving I heard him sniff coke up his nose in my kitchen. That was it for me! It still hurts and will for a while but I refuse to let my mental health decline anymore, I refuse to lose anymore sleep, I refuse to second guess if he has or hasn’t had it, I refuse to watch him destroy himself.
I’m a big fan of quotes lately, they seem to really hit me. There’s one I love and it says:
“I broke my own heart, to save my soul. There’s not a thing you can tell me about self-love that I don’t already know”
Sorry your going through this. It’s shit! Do what’s right for you, put yourself first. X