Hello Joanie59, Lindyloo let me know about you over here on this thread. You have no idea how similar our stories are. I too, have an adult alcoholic son. My story is your story as well. Mine has been going on for 10 years with my son, and I can bet that we share many of the same things. I too, have felt like running away, or sometimes even wishing I weren’t around. I don’t have a death wish or anything, I just wanted the pain to stop.
Recently, I had to stop talking to my son because he’s really awful when he’s drinking and he takes it out on me. He also was recently in the hospital initially for Covid and then stayed to detox. He also has not been interested in any outside help. We’re currently in communication, by text. I haven’t seen him physically in months. He also lets himself go when he drinks, and he’s fallen and hurt himself numerous times.
I do know that the toll that this takes on us moms, is tremendous and you do not deserve to be destroyed by this. None of us do. Your loved ones need you and your partner needs you too.
I really would love to see you transition over to the Theresa thread. You could skip to the very last 5-10 pages (it’s a very long thread, but worth reading if you are able) or so and you will see a group of women who are struggling just as you are, but have solace in one another.
Here’s how to join the Theresa thread- go to the home page of this forum. Up in the left corner, click on Forum Home and then scroll all the way down to the title “Share your Story” and the Theresa thread is the very top one, then click on that.
It will really help. Sometimes, if you do your own individual thread, it eventually goes quiet and the Theresa thread is very active with several “regulars” including me, and as you know, our problems are continuous…
I hope to see you there. And I hope you that can find some rest today for yourself, you deserve it- you matter. ????