Hi Believe welcome to the forum. Everyone here has a loved one with addictions and also some people in recovery offering support and advice.
I’m so sorry to read your story, you must be exhausted with this nightmare of addiction.
I agree with Kate Plumb, you should seek advice from the Adfam homepage or Icarus trust, or maybe Drugfam. It’s very important that you look after your own health and well-being and only then, will you be able to get the strength to support your son.
I usually post on the Theresa thread, we are a group of mums who have sons with addictions.
It’s good to talk or vent to others who have been in similar situations. The ladies are so kind and supportive.
My son is currently , thankfully in recovery at the moment. I never get complacent as we all know with mental health issues/adhd, ocd etc things can change pretty quickly.
I just wanted you to know there’s no need to feel alone in this nightmare of addiction.
Take care ❤
Lx