Thank you for your words of support – it means a lot. I can’t look at my husbands pupils as he has really dark brown eyes!! The line was really strong today and as yuk as it is that I had to do this it was taken from urine in the loo which is obviously mixed with water as he doesn’t flush in order to not wake me. He definitely had mood swings yesterday and wasn’t hungry whereas normally he will eat anything I offer him so I suppose those are 2 tell tale signs as much as I don’t want to believe them. I just want it all to go away and enjoy my marriage as it should be. I want to wake up and be happy rather than spending every waking moment worrying about him and constantly searching for clues which I know I need to stop but the trust has gone.
xx