Hi, you are not alone,
It’s important you realise that none of this is your fault.
You love him and have continued to hope he will change which is why you are still with him.
My husband is also a cocaine addict. It has been devastating, heartbreaking and made me ill.
I have realised you stay because you hope in your heart he will realise the damage and want to get help.
It makes you ill and feel like you have lost the man you met.
It’s lonely and stressful.
I know you feel ashamed to talk about this but I strongly advise you to seek support. Confide in someone you can trust or access counselling – this is confidential and will help you focus on yourself.
You need to focus on you and make sure you are the number 1 priority. You have done all you can and you can’t change this – he has to do that. But I would advise you to access support if you can. This forum has been really supportive to me and it’s good to know you are not alone, people understand. You do have choices and your mental health is so important.
Don’t be hard on you – I’m sure you have been doing an amazing job, keeping everything together xx