Hey there, I hope your OK. I’ve not been on here for a while. And I need to get back on.
So basically I’ve been struggling with cocaine for 12 year. For the last 7 roughly I just had enough and I have tried everything to stop. Hypnotist, self will, not drinking, taking up hobbies, cutting people off. I never ever used each day.. It was once every few week, once a month, sometimes once a week. I am still an addict tho.. You can use once a month and still be an addict. I never robbed and only paid for. What I can afford.
Anyway.. On boxing day last year I joined cocaine anonymous and I worked the 12 steps and got 4 month clean then I relapsed. My gf kicked me out of our family home. I lived in shared accom for 6 month. I got another 3 month clean then used, then 2 month. And I got a new 2 bed flat 2 month ago, and in the last month I had relapsed twice and now I have a new sponsor as I didn’t have one.
A lot of things got to me and I let the programme slip. But for your partner, he needs to want to quit for himself, or its pointless, he needs to quit alcohol for ever aswell, cut all mates off, dealers even family who use. He needs to implement good things in his life.
The cocaine anonymous programme works and working the 12 steps does aswell. I do meetings each day and connect with other ex addicts. It’s nothing to be ashamed off , there are doctors on the meetings, it effects everyone. I’m fully back into it now and its the best thing to stop.
Now going back to you, I think you need to do what’s best for you, me personally I’d move on with just you and your kids and you go be happy, your partner needs to work on himself. It’s just gonna be a vicious circle for you all. I hurt my kids when I left and it was a toxic relationship from us both.
My kids slept last night, I woke up clean and happy, I pray each day and meditate and this helps me. Your life will get better when u do what’s right for you and your kids.
Do what is right for your children.
My gf did the right decision kicking me out. But I want to stay clean. I just had a few blips the last few week.
I hope this helps. There’s so much I can say. That’s the best for now. Feel free to ask me anything.