So sorry to hear about your sister, it must be heartbreaking, I hope your neice is OK. No child should go through losing there mum so young.
So sorry for what happend to you, the system is a joke and what you went through no woman should go through that. Are you still doing coke? It won’t be good for your mental health one bit with what you went through.
I have so many triggers, people, places, alcohol, even seeing keys.. Because I had coke off keys. Its about limiting your triggers and leading a better way of life.
I don’t know your full situation regarding coke. But your trauma will just fuel more using, if you don’t get help with what happend. That’s my opinion. I don’t know your full story and I don’t want to be saying the wrong thing if that makes sence.
But I guess the main question is are u using alot?