Hi Lou,
I am sorry for the delay in replying, it still amazes me when the post is bought back up!
I wish I could say to you that I am clean yet I am truthful and have had major setbacks with my marriage, being arrested (very out of character), yet at the same time these negatives have made me self reflect.
Firstly and not to sound condescending well done on 13 weeks!! 4 days for me is an achievement. I like you do not know why I started nor why I continue to do it – I gain no satisfaction as such, it is simply triggers. I attempt to go straight and watch a film – then boom the drug is being abused big style in the film – trigger! Sounds ridiculous I know.
Please do not be gutted with yourself – for 13 weeks you abstained from using it. This is a blip not a relapse – a relapse would be you going back to your former use (I am unsure of what that is), tomorrow is a new day.
I would love to give you a hug xx
Much Love Debs x