Hi Lilgunner
I am new to this forum and have just read this post.
I’m sending you love and hope for a happy future and the good, kind, decent and loving person that you are shines through in all your words.
It seems to me that you have been a victim of someone being cruel to you and if you can close this chapter of your life, new happy chapters can be written.
Be as good and kind to yourself as you possibly can in 2022, you are worth so much more than how you have been treated and there is happiness out there for you in another place. ????