Hi
So it’s been a while and I’m reaching out again. I hope you’re all good and still clean.
So after last time, I ended up having a chat with him and he admitted to me that he had been taking coke but then wouldn’t say who was sourcing it. He could see how this had affected me and promised not to do it. – what a mug I am.
Things were good for a while then he was acting up again and getting really drunk.. we spoke again about it towards the end of November and he crumbled and said that he is so depressed and feels suicidal and that if he feels this way in a years time he won’t be here. He promised me that he hadn’t touched coke since we had last had a conversation about it. Ive tried to be supportive of him but I don’t think I’m enough.
The last five weeks have been rocky. He gets angry very quickly and even smashed up our living room on boxing day infront of Mt youngest who is 12… this is not the life I’m used to. We have a nice home. He apologised and says he needs help with his anger meanwhile he has a GP appointment coming up in Jan for his depression.
Today I arrive home from work and he looks different… no eye contact again and mouth moving funny. I outright ask him to do a urine test to which he does but before this tells me it’s over between us…
what do you know… positive for coke. – I cannot cope with the lies.