That’s a good thing you don’t have children together the less ties the easier to detach, even though I know you love him it’s still hard. He maybe be using due to he’s health conditions as he’s worried but won’t wake up and realise he’s killing himself abusing cocaine the way he is. Well done for holding things down at home and working too, this situation can break even the strongest person. You can be there for your kids but you can’t switch your mind off I know exactly how it is but they will pick up when you’re stressed, I know my moods are very up and down depending on how things were with their father so detaching as improved my mental health definitely even though my heart is aching. It will heal and you will feel better, and that’s okay anytime you want to message i will get back i check in here daily, as it helps especially when you question everything and what you should shouldn’t do but realistically there isn’t anything you can do, that’s hes responsibility never feel guilty. X
