Hi Debbie,
I’m nervous and scared to have serious conversations with my husband also! As soon as I tell him I would like to talk stuff instantly starts hitting the fan! He always says I’m just nagging etc. I dont understand why he tries to hide that he’s using cocaine when it’s so obvious and I know he’s high as soon as I see his face. He has gotten destructive a couple of times. He’s very manipulative and a narcissist extremely! Everything is always my fault. He makes me the reason of his using just like on Christmas Eve we went to the gas station to get him some cigarettes I walked in and got them and walked out and once he seen me he hurried and hid something and he was super nervous so I asked him “what do u have” and he said nothing then I looked between his legs on the seat and there was white powder stuff on my seat so I said asked again and he still denied it. Then I proceeded to pull out of my parking spot and noticed a bag on the ground outside of his door so I stopped and got out and got it and sure enough it was a bag quarter full of cocaine! He still then denied it and said well if it’s mine then give it to me and I set there and poured it all out! Then he got sooooo angry like so angry and blamed me for it cause we had a disagreement earlier that day but we were fine after we had talked so he yelled and screamed etc and made me feel like the lowest person in the world