Hi I finally sent him an email as he was in London saying that I know that he has been taking coke and that I wanted to help him but that he needed to want to help himself first. To cut a long story short he got angry with me for testing him without his knowledge which I can kind of understand and said we need time apart to see what that is like so I’m sitting here wondering if my marriage is over or not. He said he had been trying so hard to make our marriage work and that it was all my fault and that Christmas had been so stressful (basically because my sister knew that he took coke before Christmas when I found him out about 6 weeks ago and I guess he was embarrassed). I am so ill with all the stress that maybe I would be better without him but I can’t see that at the moment. I can understand how angry and upset you must be with that situation at the garage. I would have done exactly the same thing and most likely got the same reaction from my husband too. How iare things now? How long have you been married and how long has he been taking it. Its such a nasty, destructive drug that destroys families. I feel so drained by it all and want the man I married back but everything is almost like an argument or he is sarcastic to me. Then at weekends he ends up sleeping most days away or sitting in the dark so I am alone again but when his boys are down he is full of life and wants to be doing something. I just don’t know how much more of this I can take. He makes me doubt my sanity in all this and makes me think that it is maybe my fault. Sending you strength x
