Hi Carfan,
Welcome to the Forum.
You have made the first positive move by coming on here. There are lots of people on here in similar situations and also dealing with family members with Addiction.
If you can find a thread with Danman83 on, he is also an Addict, and he gives great advice.
Nobody judges on here.
I am the Mum of an addict, so I see it from the other side (so to speak).
I’m glad that you have reached out and try to continue your journey into Recovery.
Take care.
Dx