hi bella
you are definitely not thick, he didn’t want you to know what he was doing- they are very sly about using this drug.
lots of us thought there was something wrong with our loved ones and didn’t even imagine they’d be doing what they turned out to be doing. my husband used behind my back for 2.5 years and when i found out i was completely and utterly shocked. a lot of things suddenly made sense though – mood swings, avoiding me and sleeping late etc.
it really did knock me for six though. i had a bit of a breakdown and have since been diagnosed with ptsd. i was on sleeping tablets and anti depressants for a few months but now almost one year on, I’m feeling a bit better. i have been doing talking therapy too, which helps.
are you coping okay? also is your husband managing to stop or donyou think he might need extra support? cocaine is a very difficult drug to quit.
we’re all here in more or less the same boat so feel free to come on and ask us anything or even just vent.
xx