hi rikkrota
first of all you are not a failure, you’ve just got into a bit of a difficult situation. but there is a way out and you must try to use that same strength you have used to post this message to reach out to someone in your family, friendship circle or even the school may have some kind of support system for you.
i bet that your family have already noticed there is something wrong and are worrying nights trying to figure out what is the matter.
you are at the beginning of your life with so much to look forwards to, i wish you all the strength in the world.
xx