Hi All
I hope you had a fab Xmas and the New Year is even better for you all!
I hate to be negative upon these sites – however for the benefit and her not quite sure how to respond to my information I posted, here goes;
In response to point number one in your comments that ” You feel a little uncomfortable that I seem to be justifying my drug use” I guess I am a little uncomfortable with the fact that I did not need to justify it, life takes you on pathways for a reason and therefore as mentioned I both negative and postives learnt from it! I am not at all comfortable with your comments!
Now I don’t doubt that when smokers, wine drinkers who drink each night over an evening meal or individuals who use pharmaceutical medicatons feel it perfectly acceptable. Why is that – is it because it is legal? There lays my problem drugs such as benzos and tramadol – some of the most addictive and dangerous drugs out there – yet, don’t worry they were prescribed. Equally I am even more uncomfortable with the fact that you state you recreationally used (unsure if abused) drugs on the rave scene from 1992 till today. Well good on you – I myself had far too many responsibilities to consider using drugs for fun!
Point number two that you made that cocaine users just about function! Please particularly on my post do not discriminate any one, and attempt to place every drug user in the same category. I myself have 4 children, I might add very intelligent, non drinking, non drug using teenagers. Yes, I am two modules away from passing as a lawyer, however in someways due to judgemental individuals such as yourself and the injustice of the judicial ‘justice’ system in the UK – would rather quit than preach or listen to senior judicial members, police authority etc. who use drugs themselves! Google high functioning drug users!
With regards to your Husband nearly destroying his relationship with his kids I can only assume he told them the truth and hopefully you did not? I am only gathering or speaking in the tone you seem to – that you were not supportive – I also can only assume he must have been violent/vindictive etc. for people who truly cared would have understood – if not then I absolutely get why he did not give a *uc*, this being to block out the individuals who placed guilt trips (a known cause for more drug use) etc. If he was simply using drugs and others disliked the fact then he has not lost anyone of importance when they ditched him.
Your comment relating to “you are glad I am happy with myself”, happy/unhappy, lessons learnt – I am I – I guess ask yourself are you happy with ‘you’. I am a giver despite being a drug user, volunteer as I mentioned, study to eventually assist with drug addiction, grew as an individual (not always a nice one, self reflection though is a very valid learning tool).
Finally I did not mention a law degree however as a person who is ‘coping just about’, bringing up 4 children, gaining the highest award status in health and social care, overcoming a nervous breakdown that dropped me to my knees (prior to any drug use), due to a miscarriage, cradling my 50 year old Mother-in-Law whilst she died in my arms from a brain anuerism, the list does go on but I will not bore you, returning to study law in my recovery period and passing every single exam and finally studying a degree in psychology from home, with the first year past! I must be one of the lucky ones I guess!
Drug test! Coming from a user or ex-user and I guess my really answer or question to you is – what gives you the right as an ex-user to dictate in the way in which you did to me (or is it you do not understand the tones that words can take?) I assume it is due to this reason as your illiteracy is not the greatest (I apologise for that comment), but guess what that is what it feels like to be judge before you hear a person’s story!!
Good luck on your story – do you ever wonder why your Husband would wish to blot you out by his use of drugs – to be honest am I am a caring person I see his point!
Good luck on your pathway – I truly hope that you can enlighten, not judge and not advocate services that typically use religion or occult similar meetings to lull the addict into a security that they believe they have been saved. News flash darling – firstly you tell me how a person can be addicted to a drug that when hitting the UK is generally 10% pure, psychological addiction ’tis all in the case of cocaine, yes this is coming from an individual who has based on her own decision tapered from many ‘wonder drugs’ benzos presribed by inadeqaute GP’s – lost many friends to drug use, yet it’s not use in their case ‘abuse’.
Lost for words, all I can say is please halt commenting on my post if you have nothing positive to say then to direct individuals to services whilst sounding like a condescending, hypocritical (you must know the saying ‘people in glass houses’ etc.
It would be very interesting to know your age, how many children, job title etc.
Much Love and Luck