Hi Esta
I was overwhelmed that you thought of me and then couldn’t find the strength to respond because of the mess I am in and feel so stupid.
Will try and cut a long story short but I stuck to my guns, then his mam cut him off and I knew he had no-one at Christmas. I felt so sad for him stuck in his horrible flat with no food. So I said he could come for Christmas dinner. It was horrible he was skin and bone and he was falling asleep at the table. Nothing would wake him and I know too well that that is his come down sleep. I really don’t know what my family must of thought but they said nothing and neither did I.
I took him back home Christmas day and from what I gather went on a drug binge and then fell in to depression and told me he was suicidal. He said he was done with drugs and wanted help.
Stupidly I agreed to help and he managed 2 weeks sober and now he is back hounding me for money. Tonight I have flung money at him and walked out. I know it enables him but I can’t stand the thought of violence. So gave him it and left. At present I am a mixture of anger and sadness. I don’t know where to turn.
Whilst he was doing well for the 2 weeks he went and asked for help from drug services but it was useless there is no treatment for crack cocaine. He is already on a opiate substitute. There really is not much in our area.
I’m sorry for my late reply but I’m so disappointed with myself for being so weak.
I hope you are well as you obviously have your own story. Thank you for thinking of me.