Hello,
Thankyou so much for your response to my post. You have no idea how nice it is to have a message from someone in the same boat.
I’ve kicked him out in the past and we’ve gone a week with no contact but he gets his act together and ‘love bombs’ and I fall back into the same cycle.
I learnt a lot about enabling ect and I don’t give him money, he’s not allowed in the house until he’s back to normal after use and if I’m honest I’m vile to him after he’s used and I enjoy it as horrible as it sounds.
He went to the doctors after I lost my mum just before lockdown. But because he admitted his use they wouldn’t help re depression as that’s what he claims makes him use (from the research I’ve done depression is made worse by cocaine). They told him to come back in 3 months but unfortunately we went into lockdown and he didn’t take it further.
Unfortunately I’m financially dependent on him being a stay at home mum to our son. Both my parents have sadly passed away so it’s not like I have ‘home’ to return to. So finding a way out feels so slim right now.
May I ask did you leave, or are you still struggling on in the cycle? How do you cope with it all 🙁
Thankyou again so much for your response xx