Hey
It’s amazing how they mess us up and we have to put ourselves back together isn’t it!.
And it’s amazing how we hide it so when we need to reach out for support no one is really there because they haven’t seen it so they don’t believe you ????
I’m glad your doing okay and getting out and about, I’m going out a bit too…with my kids as a safety but it’s out so I don’t care haha
This time last year I thought I had it all together, I was out walking miles but I stupidly thought maybe I could still fix him…and as soon as he came back I stopped walking and before I knew it I was dragged back into his way of life lol, it was so much worse this time round, I felt so anxious just having him in the house because he managed to change the whole mood, he was such a constant drag, I think most of that was drugs making him moody but not the nasty side, that doesn’t actually make him say the things he did, it just made him confident to say it.
Your right though, I’ve gotta get myself as strong as I can while I can so I don’t fall for his lies again because they are lies,
I’ve not been able to tell many people about the things he’s done over the years because they sound crazy and he is loved by everyone but I can see it so clearly now, he was unbelievable for maybe the first few months, and then he switched.
The things he’s done and put me through! Goodness knows why I put up with it and still loved him!
As for the job! They messed me around with hours and kept changing what they wanted so I didn’t take it, I have 5 children to take care of so I need a job I can rely on lol, I have two interviews this week with much better options, fingers crossed ???????? I’ll let you know how I do.
Chat soon xx