Hi Charm, welcome to the forum where most people here have a loved one with addictions and also some people in recovery offering support and advice.
Thank you for sharing your story, I think this is your first step to recovery by admitting you have an addiction and want support. You should be proud of yourself for taking this step.
I wondered if you had read Jamesb story, he is a person in recovery offering good advice.
My son is 29 and has alcohol and cocaine addictions, he reached out for support 2 years ago.
He was in your situation, struggling, addiction spiralling, mounting debt, about to lose job, house etc. We helped him with some of the debt and he paid up the rest. He joined AA and CA groups, met others, formed new friendship and got great support from these guys.
He’s been through some tough times battling this but I’m proud to day he is currently 8 months clean.
He has to do meetings regularly and unfortunately had to cut ties with his usual friends. He has completed abstained from drinking- he has to, as alcohol is a trigger to using cocaine.
I wanted you to know that there IS a way out of this nightmare!
Please seek help from CA groups, they do them regularly online, and face to face. They do 12 step program- same as rehab centres, you get a sponsor who will contact you regularly.
You are still young with your whole life ahead of you, please seek help – don’t let this evil addiction take over your life. Stay strong.
Sending you hugs and prayers.
Lx