Hello again,
Sorry I haven’t been on here sooner. I completely understand the feeling of feeling out of control with your own emotions.. it’s so scary. I really admire your strength I honestly do. But take such courage to remove yourself from them and the situation. Sounds really silly but have you got tictok? Even though I am still with my husband I really found the whole narcissist and addict side of tictok so eye opening.
Just a little update on my situation.. he went to the doctors off his own back the following week and this time saw a different doctor who has prescribed him anti depressants and so far he seems in a better place and hasn’t used cocaine. Although I am not silly and know his normal pattern of behaviour is stays away from coke for roughly 6 weeks and then we have another awol not coming home bender. So I guess in a couple of weeks I will see.. as it’s only been 3 so far. I’m trying to drop the past and try and be supportive but it’s very hard at times.
I guess if this fails then I will accept there’s no helping him and I will have to remove myself and children from the situation. I guess I then know I’ve tried absolutely everything and he has nothing to hold over me regarding him changing. Because he’s never done anti dependents he’s always had the “I will try them and sort myself out”. Time will tell.
I hope your doing ok and remaining strong. Does he accept it for what it is or does he blame you for the break up? Has he accepted his issues or does he think he’s absolutely fine. If you don’t mind me asking.
Xxx