Hi,
Thanks for posting. I hope that you have found this forum really helpful but if you would like more support please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers help to people who are dealing with addiction in their family and we offer a service called Family Friends. These are trained and experienced people you could talk with if you get in touch which might help you to feel less lost.
You can reach us on contact@icarustrust.org
All the best.