It is very sad, the thought of been alone is very sad when you think of the positive times. I think I had started to resent the situation if I’m honest. When he came out of rehab I was very much that I would never drink again. As this was during covid nobody was going out anyway so it didn’t matter about socialising but my good friends who did know about his addiction and rehab began to keep us at a distance. Not inviting us out. We were no fun anymore clearly. Iv ended up loosing contact with most of my friends and if I’m honest it’s not nice. Then I would watch him go on his benders, been allowed to drink so to speak while Iv given everything up for him. Iv never been a big drinker but I hate what alcohol has done to my life over the last 4 years and the hurt it has caused me. Obviously it’s my ex who caused this but it’s the drink that makes him like he is. It’s a disease and it’s terrible.
