[thistim3]

So lately after learning about the extent of his addiction to coke (I doubt I’ll ever know everything) all these years later – he is now suffering from panic attacks. It is like our discussions have stirred it all up in him and he’s having a hard time with the memories of what he was doing then. More than 30 years ago, when he quit using coke. So scary. He has hurt me emotionally more than I could have ever imagined, he has hurt himself same or worse. He has agreed to begin individual counseling next week. I’ve never seen him this upset.