You obviously really love him and I’m so sorry to hear your going through this, I have been through it, not with a female friend, his male friends but the feeling alone and abandoned and not knowing what they are upto is the same, when you get past that part after long months or years you eventually end up not really liking them very much at all as you get so sick of it. You shouldn’t feel bad for not getting rid of him, as even when you outright tell them to go they don’t just leave and obviously our caring nature just tolerates it over and over, by the time they come home they have used up all their money and chances so they won’t leave where else will they go, other people only keep them until they’ve nothing to give. It’s sad and I wish there was a cure but there’s not and it’s a shame we also have to pay for their mistakes.
