But also to one of your previous comments about them seeking out someone to do it with so they’re not alone, when they get really bad later stages they don’t even care if they have company they will just sneak out for an hour ‘to the shop’ and do it on their own, the addiction gets that strong, they don’t even get any enjoyment anymore it’s just a really strong urge they have to go and do. you are lucky that you don’t have real strings attached and when you feel strong enough you can just walk off, when you have a home and kids there’s things you have to sort out and then the overwhelming guilt that if you could only fix things the kids would have their wonderful dad back. That when they’re older they might blame you whether you’re together or not of how he turned out.
