Home ladies , was a nice weekend, she kept sending stupid tik toks about cocaine , so his mind was On it all weekend, he was still distant intimately, kills me that part cos I just want to cuddle him but he pulls away unless we in bed and he cuddles me , she made fun of our weekend away before we left making him feel it was sad and cheesy going for a spa weekend lol this girl is on anther level she really is , I love him but I’m going to try detach my feelings and then maybe I’ll be able to walk away , I have good work opportunities coming up , I’ve decided I’m throwing myself a 40th birthday party this year, decided to take care of me for a change, I made a lot of effort this weekend hair perfect nice outfits bit of make up nails done and not one comment from him, he calls himself a junkie I hate hearing it but he told me he nearly smoked crack last week and realising I’ve lost him and he also knows it too, so I’m still going to stay here hope no one minds me venting , but I’m going to try stick to the plan take care of me and try let him go xx hope you had a lovely weekend
