Hi Callum well done for admitting it , my husband left 6 months ago after a fantastic 24 year marriage it’s since came out he’s hooked badly on cocaine and finally admitted it today , now I’ve been on your partners end , the lies the shock of it all hits you like a bolt of lightening I imagine she is on egg shells with the whole situation, what’s happened has happened there is no point going back over it , you want to do the right thing now that’s what matters , make sure she knows how serious you are about it and join ca every self help group you can , my husband has lost everything even today he failed a drug test after swearing he hasn’t touched it in 2 weeks he won’t accept help he wants to do it on his own which I imagine where you have been yourself , it never works out well you need to be open and honest with everyone , well done again for admitting it , take any help your offered xx