Hi Callum, welcome to the forum and thank you for sharing your story. You have admitted that you have a problem with alcohol and cocaine and seek support. That is your first step to recovery !
If you scroll back a bit and read Danman83 or Jamesb posts they are guys in early recovery offering support and advice.
My 29yr son has alcohol and cocaine addictions, the alcohol triggers the need for cocaine, so you need to stop drinking, and hanging around the crowd who drink and use.
My son has been using alcohol since 14 and cocaine since 17.
After years of hell, he came to us for help. Dealers after him, debt, about to lose everything.
He joined CA and AA groups, he has had a few relapses but to date thanks to the fellowship guys and sheer determination is currently 9 months clean.
So it IS possible, there are so many other success stories out there.
You will be pushing others aside as using cocaine desensitises you towards any emotion or care. My son told me this.
Please seek help from these guys Callum you won’t regret it. The meetings are everywhere and regularly. So you have no excuse!
Take care, stay strong and keep in touch here.
Lx