Hi,
So sorry to read your post and see how you’re depressed because of your partner’s addiction. I’m sorry that you can’t speak to family or friends. If you would like to talk with someone who would understand what you are going through, please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people like you dealing with addiction in the family. If you get in touch one of our trained Family Friends would talk with you which might help you to move forward.
you can get in touch at contact@icarustrust.org
All the best.