what a terrible time you’ve had/are having. it was me that said about the war zone. and lockdown was utter hell for me too. unfortunately i can identify only too well. i don’t think I’ll ever get over that period either.
mine has stopped using drugs for 13 months, after he got caught by his business partner – between us we gave my husband one chance and he has turned his life around, but i know only too well how close i am to your life position.
good luck on your escape x