Reading what hell you ladies have been through is making me realise its not gonna get better and why am I even trying ,I have no attachments to him my kids are my own we have none together we down own a house together so why am I even going through this misery alongside him, your both very strong women , I’m getting to that cut off point because more I talk to others I’m realising there’s nothing wrong with me it’s nothing I’m doing wrong or not doing and also not everyone gets clean and tbh I can’t see mine getting clean for a long time ,he doesn’t hide it from me anymore it’s out in the open and he doesn’t seem ashamed just annoyed after he spend all his money and runs up more debts , we pull out the stops don’t we shower them with everything to make them feel loved when we get nothing in return , I’m not sleeping just now I’m uo till 5am in morning today thinking of it all , its his day off today I already know his plans even tho he hasn’t said x it’s a shame he ruined Holland for you hope one day you might return and have happier memories
